Monday, March 05, 2007 ()
YOUR NAME @ 11:42 AM / comment (0)
Dear Dairy,
For the past few days, life is fun, sad, mad and relaxing. Exams are over, stress is more or less gone. Watching anime as time passed by. Loving anime as days passed by. Getting more idea for my story as weeks passed by. Putting on weight as every meal passed by. Life is somehow nice and fun, but what if all these just 'snap' and disappear. No more thoughts, no more actions, no more emotions, no more feelings, no more food, no more manga, no more anime, no more, everything... The existence of my life is no more. Where will i go? Everything is all gone, everything ends here, the point when my body falls to work anymore. My thoughts, my action, my emotions, my feeling, my food, my anime, my manga. All this will be gone. Or is it more of I will be gone, leaving things behind for others who are born to this world. The feeling of death is scary, and i mean REALLY SCARY. I even tried to comfort myself that there is such a thing a heaven where it is a place for relaxation, freedom and do nothing. Is this so? I wonder... will we go to heaven or hell after we die? What will happen then. Is heaven and hell the creations by our thought and desire? Our thoughts of a world after dead and our desire of not wanting to die. A hope that there will be a place for our thoughts to continue living on. Our unwillingness of letting go. We are chained to the unlimited wants that exist due to our thoughts. Are you willing to let go? I am not. I have alot of things to do. I dun wish to die and i cannot die so young. I am the one who cannot let got. I hope that if you get to read this, picture urself being removed from this world. Even if ur life is good or bad, think again do u want it to end.
Labels: Life and Death