Wednesday, May 02, 2007 ()
YOUR NAME @ 11:29 PM / comment (0)
Dear dairy,
This past few days have been a rough journey for me but i think i am the only one suffering, I had been sending emails to my (ex-)best friend, the words and emo putted into those email could be seen clearly. Everything is so clear cut... I dunno wat to say. I am self pitying myself T.T... I am not committed in getting things done, I am just whining, complaining and stuff, put my msn nick as 'Visit My blog at www.atashiyume.blogspot.com *Updated on 24/4/07 -- take a look at my drawings!' <--- is there any essence of force? Do u feel that i am forcing to come to my blog?! I am pestering u? I am just putting it as my nick cos i believe no one would ever come to my blog at all. I am not popular, nor am i good around with friends. I am so self centered. Lolx I just want attention, someone whom would comment on my drawings and say ' WOW! So nice! ' I want attention not totally for myself, partly for my drawings. It is just that someone out there do not understand, she say i am forcing my NYP friends to love anime!? I feel that 'bam' knock in the face.
Force?! I was like did i force u to read my blog, i did not put a knife or dagger on ur throat and say ' TAG ON MY BLOG! FASTER! TAG NICE WORDS! ' <-- This would be force... ain't i right? Since when i force anyone in my class to love anime, i just draw in class sometimes i would like ' Nah! See my drawing! ' I did that to my close friend at NYP cos she is nice and understanding. My other classmate would say ' Can let me see?' I just pass it to them and let them see. I am so happy when ppl comment on my drawing. Something it is bad comment but i agree with them and joke with them saying ' dun comment la u also cannot draw as well as me ' We were like laughing. Note to the someone out there! I dun force ppl to love anime! And i dun believe that u can have a group of friend who have different interest! Try have friends who love to play Maple story! Trying having friends who love to watch the news! Trying having friends who dun like wat u like. I am telling u, u will slowly lose touch with them, cos it is very difficult to start a conversation when they are totally in a different topic with u.
Having friends who have the same interest as u, would be nicer, it would be like 'WOW! U watch this!' 'Me too!' 'HI 5' 'Do u know this character ...' Then there is chemistry, interact and laugh within the group of ppl. That is why poly life and like groups. We have same interest, we stay together. We love to talk be stick to together, and talk about general thing. We love makeup, we stick together, and be girly girls. We are boys and we stick together! I want friends that i can talk about anime, manga, games and stuff related. Currently, i am with a group of friends and we just talk about general stuff like boys and teacher....etc but we cannot zoom in and talk about personal interest, cos it maybe boring to the rest. So (_ _ _) <--- u know who u are, dun give me any of ur advise if u have not try it out yet, cos i did and i dun think u had...
P.S : Love my NYP friends not classmate or ex-classmates. The group that is with me right now. Love u guys. (I clearly means friendship love ^v^)
Labels: A fight off. I am mad/anrgy.